JAWC Volume 2 : Standing on peak of the lowest mountain...
I look at the success of others in an envious awe and know that I'm merely a speck amongst the stars. I have the luxury of being in the heavens, amongst the cosmos, and lingering around the galaxies and nebula... all the while I am mere space dust... I wonder if I'm even needed in this world of awe and wonder... I sort of should just accept my place as background fodder for the wondrous anomoly that exceed all expectation.
I don't know if I even yearn to be a fancy star, a planet, or even a fantastic star cluster. Staying in the Background has it's benefits, however it'd be nice to know how it feels to be adored by others, to be crowded and wanted by so many, instead of just staying on my own little dust cloud shrouded in darkness by the brighter stars, shining to millions and leaving others diminished in comparison by their fame.
It's a world I'll never know, I may struggle and strive but ultimately I shall always be a background dust cloud... transparent in comparison, just there taking up space, unknown and uncared for, nothing more than a person waiting to be passed over for those who've gained admiration and love. I sometimes wonder what it'd be like to live in that world, to be cared for unconditionally, the free swag, the excitement the wonder and the fans pouring their adulation and fanatacism of one such as I... it's so alien to me, but I can only make believe.
One day I'll be on that world stage, where I will have that following, how I await that auspicious day, longing for that kind of lauding.... but for now I'll strive for it, I won't give up and I'll revel in the background, knowing that it's a mere matter of time... nothing happens all at once, it'll be a long road towards that goal, and the beginning of roads are always a rough and rocky start... it's as we travel that road that we learn the bumps and pits that try to make us stumble... and we learn to avoid them and find shortcuts on occasion...
This is one hell of a bumpy road.
I don't know how much longer I'll be peering into the lives of the JAWC crew... I suspect that I'll end this comic at Volume 3... I already have an idea of what may happen... but most likely it'll be open ended, where you yourself can imagine what may come of them, overall I don't know if this will last too long when I should be applying myself to projects that actually matter...
There's so much more I want out of life, and this comic is just another way of practice so I don't lose any skill, when the time comes, I plan to finish the comic in a good way that could leave way for another volume if I ever felt like it... and yeah, I know that talking about the end of a webcomic when you're not even midway through the second volume is stupid, I'm not going to argue that, but shit, I just know that it's going to end more quickly than one would've thought...
Sometimes I wonder if people actually even read this damn thing... I don't think anyone reads this anymore, they may browse the site, check out the comic and then go on, and since I've been gone on hiatus for 4 months would leave me to believe that no one would bother sticking it out and checking back on me... I just lost all 10 of my readers... and that's my fault, and it sucks. I'm lucky enough that I was given advice that I should draw the comic for me, and if people want to read along then so be it... and I know that I enjoy the comic, cause it's my own creation... I just hope that over the next 2-3 years that as I go along towards the ending, that things work out and it'll be worthwhile.... and when I do draw my final comic, it will be awesome and I'll be able to create something new that will shake up the webcomic world and be more awesome than the last one.
I've learned a lot drawing this comic, I've learned more out of this than I have in a long long time... and when I do decide to start a new webcomic, I'll make sure to research and have a backlog, filler comics and enough fodder that I can update for a solid six months without worrying about the next comic... next time I do this, I'll do it right... as for now at this time, I'll continue to muddle my way through the updates and hope that anyone that IS reading this enjoys the comic and I hope you'll stick it out with me for the next few years until I close the book on my characters and decide to start anew.
Welcome to it.
- Tiki Man