JAWC Volume 2 : I have no clue when I last updated -_-;;; Seriously, I think I've lost track of time... I mean, I'm not sure what happened, but geez... oh well, time to regroup and keep going... I really don't like Friday updates because my rant only stays up for 3 days... then it's gone... which of course could be seen as a good thing because that means it has less time to be read by anyone.... so I'm more free to say whatever I want in this rant... so here goes... I'm not using my parents as an excuse for anything... I really need to fix myself and getting into a new situation right now while I'm broken will do nothing more than make me more upset and miserable... I have a goal, I have a path to reach that goal, and I don't like it when I'm being told that I'm using other people to prevent myself from doing something... I know what's wrong with me, and I know what I have to do... and I'll get it done... I have no qualms about making good on certain ambitions when it comes to myself because I'm a very selfish person... it's one of the many reasons I don't think I can handle a normal relationship because I'm prone to extreme jealousy, which is nothing more than me being overly selfish.... so when it comes to myself, I'm apt to get it done, cause otherwise I'm gonna just get more pissed... I'm a very angry person, most of the time I'm passive, but sometimes I get so angry that it can scare people... I'm not afraid to tell people that, in fact that's one of the reasons I left Utah... it's pointless to go into but safe to say, I screwed things up, and it's up to me now to fix things... And fix things I shall, so I'm not going to make excuses for my behaviors, I just have to buckle down and start preparing myself for a new start of life, cause unlike so many, I'm able to start over... and hopefully things will work out better the next time... so here's to the first step towards a better restart... Welcome to it... - Tiki Man