JAWC Volume 2 : Comics were done prior to 2009 so the signature stays...

I find that the things which once brought people together usually turn out to be the very things they now ignore...

After all, what does it matter what the hell I say anymore... everything's gone to hell lately, and I realize that there's nothing being done by either party to mend what once was wrong... but then again, I remember trying and failing, so I stopped trying... why bother continually trying when the result turns out to be the same?

Albert Einstein said that Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results... well, I now understand that I was insane expecting different results... the sad acceptance is that when someone doesn't care for you the way you care for them, sometimes it's best to stop caring.

Now, it's not best to stop caring for them, but it's best to stop caring about whether or not they'll ever reciprocate that love or caring that you have towards them... it's better to accept that it'll always be a one sided affair and to try and move on.

I mean, lately I've been seeing so many things in my life that I can fix if I just learned to stop caring... now this isn't at all easy, I mean, my whole life people are telling others to care, whether it's for a cause, a people, a way of life, a belief or a culture... but they don't talk about when you should stop caring about the things that keep you deluded and downtrodden.

I'm tired of the one person I thought would understand me, goes out of there way to make me feel as though there's something wrong with me, whether it's what I'm doing or not doing... just overall making it seem as if I don't do anything with my time and making it sound as though I should be able to do what they're doing...

thanks for the comparison, right?... WRONG... don't compare me with yourself... I can however understand if you want to use yourself as a baseline for people you want to be with, a set standard that you don't want to slip... but when the person comparing what they do all day drinks, plays videogames and stays home all day and then procrastinates until the last minute to deal with the governmental procedures they should've dealt with over 2 years ago... TWO YEARS!... and then relies on their fans to bail them out of their tight spot... hell, I don't want to be compared with that.. and if that's the standards of people you want to be with?... then fuck, I'm glad I'm not up to those standards.

and do I worry about that person reading this?... hell no, cause let's face facts, the rants they used to read are never frequented, so it's not like all my rant will reach them anytime soon, cause let's face it... they stopped caring.

They stopped caring about me a long time ago, and I'm understanding that I shouldn't care about that, and just accept my one sided caring and be done with it... cause when push comes to shove... I will always be their friend, but I know that they won't be my friend... just an acquaintance.

Nothing more, nothing less... no matter how much I care...

Welcome To It...

- Tiki Man