JAWC Volume 2 : I really need to rebuild my backlog... I should've updated on Sunday night... although, well.. let's face it, no one visits and it's a miracle I'm still being hosted considering that I bring nothing to the table other than a different type of comic that's about the mundane happenings of everyday life of these few people the comic is centered around... Regardless... I find that I need to rant about something... and it seems that lately after coming back to where I was.. my misogyny has increased tenfold... it's cracked the glass on my perceptions of women, I was starting to trust again, put up a new piece of funhouse glass where my view would be distorted for the better, and then I come back and it's crashed to the floor in a million pieces... I see with new eyes at what women can become and it makes me want to objectify the whole gender... I mean what's the point in trying to make a woman happy if in turn all she does is just get more embittered and purposely try to make you miserable for trying to be nice? and to all the naysayers out there, I am a nice guy... when push comes to shove and if you bother to get to know me.. I'm a pretty nice guy... meanwhile, all those "nice guys" out there that other chicks know are really assholes... I mean, what kinda guy doesn't care if his wife is drinking at home alone.. or if she goes off on trips out of country for a week or more at a time?... seriously... how much can a guy love a girl if he's willing to say goodbye at the drop of a hat? I don't get that shit... I mean, if you love someone... wouldn't you want to be with that person every second you possibly could?... wouldn't you want to be near them at all times? would you really want to let them go where ever they wanted without you?... and on the opposite side of the coin.. why would a woman want to leave their husband in the first place to go on a trip?... wouldn't you want him to come along?... to be with you?... Sadly though, women think that's too "clingy"... well... sorry for loving you.. sorry for wanting to always be with you... it seems that loving you is wrong... well who the hell needs right then?... If you love someone... really love them... being apart from them should be painful... so painful that even talking over the phone causes you to hurt because you know you can't be with them... knowing that they're somewhere else while you're stuck at home while they're away would hurt so badly it would depress you so much you wouldn't want to wake up in the morning... just because you know that without her... that without her, life wouldn't be worth living... But no... that's too "clingy"... FUCK YOU!... ALLRIGHT!?... When I love someone, that's how I love... every minute is painful because I can't be with that person... and every day after is a life of torment and agony knowing that you can never be together... and why not?... because life is a cruel place of cold embitterment that needs misery as company... and well it seems me and life are flat mates... I remember a line out of "The Holiday" where Kate Winslet has the fortunate line of telling the guy she's getting away from a crucial line,"...we both know I need to fall out of love with you..." and as cheesy and schmaltzy as it sounds.. it's a great line... I say this because my love is a different kind of love and I don't know if anyone else agrees with me, but shit.. if you love someone, you always want to be with them... and as of late, the person I love doesn't love me that way, hell... quite frankly at this point I don't think she even likes me at all... I think it's more of a tolerance of who I am now... and there's nothing I can do about that, except try to fall out of love with them... and it's really hard to accomplish... every day it feels like a part of me is chipping off and decaying... and by my own volition so I can work on my life... and move foward and to be a better person, because I know I have to live without them in my life... Life sucks, love stinks, and quite frankly... if you ever find someone to love you back the way you love them... never let them go... never. cause odds are they won't come back... and you'll regret it until the day you die... unless you kill that piece of yourself and move on... and sometimes that's worse than death... cause death is easy.. .living is what's hard. Welcome To It... - Tiki Man