JAWC Volume 2 : Replenishing the Backlog... Working on the comic backlog so I'm not without comics, currently ahead of the game in terms of pencilled pages, still need to finish them, but even so it's not enough to sustain myself on... so I'm still working on them pages... wish me luck, or don't... I don't care beyond that sentence... I find that I'm losing time and I'm not making much progress... it's a curse, but eh, lately I haven't felt like doing a damn thing except work on the comic some and then read manga... I mean seriously, Detective Conan is so freakin awesome... go and read it if you have the chance... mysteries are cool like that... anyhow... beyond those two things I've seriously hit a rut... just...ugh... Anyhow, let's talk about the fact that this will be my last AnthroCon for a couple years... why am I talking about this? because I can, and it won't really make too much a difference to anyone if I do, cause I mean, no one really cares all that much about this comic or site, I'm surprised it's still up and running, huge thanks to Xepher for hosting this blackhole of a site... but anyhow, AnthroCon... This is going to be my last one for a couple of years... I find that it's too much of a burden to shell out a large amount of cash for something that barely yields me about a quarter to a half of what I put into it... seriously, that's one helluva loss to my income... talk about starving artists eh?... so this is gonna be it... dunno when I'm gonna attend again, but meh, it's not like I'll be missed... I'm just another brick in the wall, so to speak... thanks pink floyd... But of course this information leads into the next bit which of course the direction I'll be taking from that point in my real life and with the comic and the internet... and let's put it this way... I'll be slowly phasing myself away from society... it's something I'm quite adept at, though many wouldn't believe it, I can and most probably will phase out the internet socializing from my life... I'm one of the few people that won't throwdown the internet drama and claim I'm leaving... I'll just disappear... and it should be like that... who the hell wants to disappear with drama?... just sneaking away without anyone really realizing what I'm doing... it'll be interesting to do that... bordering fun even... The comic will end most likely a little after I disappear from the social scene... it'll have a nice hoo-rah, and then phase that out completely, the site'll die at that point and then phase 2 will be complete, phase 3 of course is rebuilding my real life situation, cause I've been neglecting real life for the internet, and yeah, I know that you can use the internet to meet people in real life, but seriously, this internet thing has brought me a lot of happiness and in turn a huge amount of pain and sadness.... Of course all of this will probably be implemented over the course of 2 years.... I know it seems like a lot, but eh, time flies and I need to work on me... I'm tired of people wanting me to be there for them when they always push me away... like what the hell?... I'm not the supplement to your life... you already chose someone else... so don't be offended when I disappear.. it was only a matter of time... you made your bed, now sleep in it, cause I know I've gotta sleep in mine... and my bed gives me restless sleeps and long painful nights... I've gotta live with that... and so should you... I'm tired of being a security blanket for some people.... sure you don't tell me anything, sure you don't treat me as though you really care, and at times it feels like you're mocking me, but dammit, you'll miss me when I'm gone, and all you'll have is that thing you thought was a good idea, and realize it isn't, but it'll be too damn late... and no matter how much I say it, your ego will prevent you from believing me... sometimes I think to myself that maybe I should just quit the internet for a couple of months... and just show up in 3-4 months and see if anyone really gives a damn when I come back... if not, then I should leave forever, just as silently as I left the first time and call it a day... cause I don't know what I have with anyone... all I know is that it's seemingly less real as each day goes by... I'm gonna sleep this feeling off... and update Monday and send this melodramatic bullshit to the archives.... see ya all then, and as always... Welcome To It... - Tiki Man