Welcome to The SoapBox!! This is the freedom of speech page.. or the "SoapBox" welcome!.. obviously you dropped by because you figured... hey, I need to see how messed up this person is... well here we go... Hmm, I'm writing this before the election ends, I guess it's because I don't really care too much about politics, I do care that politics can turn people into fanatics and freaks... I was asked I was doing... sure a common question, a good ice breaker and sometimes a pleasant greeting... still, most people will answer with the same thing.. I'm fine... how are you?... sometimes I want to answer that question and take a good 5 minutes of the persons time... Well, I guess I'll break it down... someone really ticked me off, this person attacked my style and my coloring skillz... as an artist... I've forced myself to try and break away from societal norms... I've been seriously drawing now for almost 4 years... during this time, my art has been swayed alot, here and there, but ultimately I've developed a style all my own... because of this I become upset because to attack my style is to attack what I've become and where I'll eventually be going as an artist... Still this rant will be rather melancholy, for that I apologize, I just need to vent, anyone has a problem... you can go die, I won't care... this is the part where I will answer any questions about how I am doing... I feel like my life is stagnating, winter is coming and life is starting to freeze over too... My life at current is flustered with mixed emotions of rage, angst and depression; The female figures that most affect me directly has caused me to adopt an odd perspective towards women and the role they play in society, and even though social norms are in place... sometimes I'd enjoy being above the rules and having an absolution unparralleled to any previous thought or determination of any dictator in the history of mankind... When people you thought you knew, understood and cared for, reveal the truth for how the past several years has slowly turned into a callous, gutwrenching delivery of painful encounters and sorrowful goodbyes... somethings' gonna give... sadly, that was my respect... Now, don't get me wrong, I love women, they feel nice, they're fun to be around, and eventually try and find that special someone that won't tear my heart in two if she ever had the chance... still, my perspective is now a cautious one, and I fear that because of my encounters I will be paranoid and fearful of my partner because of the past deceit I've seen with women... Monogomy is still my thing, if I find something or someone I like, I stick with it... I hope that if I were to find that special someone in which I could settle down with.. she's not going to take my trust and destroy it, my tolerance for that is zero.. if she cheats, she goes, simple as that... no mercy... if you wanted to hurt me, you succeeded... but you won't keep me under your thumb while you go fuck the world... You ask how I'm doing?.. I'm doing the best I can DAMMIT, based on my experience and my values... I just hope that in the end, after I finally learn who I truly am, I can better manage my damage, and be the best person I've become... I'm OMGTKB and I approve this message, sorta, not really, whatever... OMGTKB (Ben) that's all this week.. check back next time...same rant time (when I get to it...) ...same rant button...