Welcome to The SoapBox!! This is the freedom of speech page.. or the "SoapBox" welcome!.. obviously you dropped by because you figured... hey, I need to see how messed up this person is... well here we go... sometimes I wonder if the things I know are true or not... as if all the knowledge I have is there to fog my view and dull my senses... I trust and I follow through, I try my hardest to mediate but sometimes I doubt my decisions... am I a coward? am I being reasonable? being thorough?... did I go wrong somewhere?... but it's times like those that I have to own up to my final choices and go down the path on which I started... I never know where I'm going, but I try to better manage my damage as the trip through my life travels onward. Where would I have been if I did things differently?... I mean, on the many paths that lie before me... which path do I want to follow? and when I choose that path, will it work out?... sometimes anticipating regret is worse than actually following through with your goals and aspirations... it's these what ifs' that cause that regret, and sadly I look back to the past and see them littered about the trail I've traveled. It's with a hopeful heart I travel the new path I'm making and although it's pretty similar to the one I've been traveling, my aspirations is that the regrets are fewer and that the decisions I make, I will be contented with and find some sort of happiness at the end of this trail... and that the next journey I take from there will just get better... after all, there has to be more to life than what's happening currently... OMGTKB (Ben)