Welcome to The SoapBox!! This is the freedom of speech page.. or the "SoapBox" welcome!.. obviously you dropped by because you figured... hey, I need to see how messed up this person is... well here we go... Maybe I need to back off from people... I don't know... I can't decipher when I'm being abrasive and annoying, contrary to the times when I'm entertaining and funny... I just don't know... I don't want to piss people off as much as I do... it's just that the majority of the time I just don't give a damn... which isn't good in itself... Sometimes I feel as though I'm being humored when I speak... and as a result I am bombarded with my own special brand of paranoia... which again isn't a good thing... cause that's when I start to ramble nonsense... and rambling can be amusing, but occasionally it'll cross the line of amusing into the realm of annoying... which I never realise I cross... Some may argue that the crossing of lines is what makes America the country it is... after all, if the colonists didn't cross lines and revolt against England the people here would have actually cared more about princess Di's death and what prince harry is doing at this moment, and why charles married a pug dog... The downside here is that I'm not fighting an oppressive monarchy... I'm just trying to get by without coming across as a damn idiot... sometimes I wish I was fighting the monarchy instead... at least then if I had something to say it would at least sound productive... instead of something that sounds more like an acid trip gone afoul... It might be best to stop the socializing and just shut down my sense of reaching out... I know that sounds bad.. but it's not like it'll be permanent... then again, I do have the ability to just shut out everyone and start anew... did that in high school, college and jobs... maybe that's why I always feel awkward when I talk to these people... I mean, they're the first few people I actually want to keep talking to... even if it is nonsensical ramblings... eh.. that's all for this week... a new rant will be up on sunday/monday... see ya then... OMGTKB (Ben) Sometimes I wonder if anyone reads this last line...