Welcome to The SoapBox!! Yes... This is the "Soap Box"... which means I can put anything I want here and not give a damn what you think. Things seemingly are out of control with my life... and even though I try to fix things I end up making them slightly worse... this is to no surprise to anyone I have come in contact with or talk to... however without going to much into my personal life, which oddly enough I never do, or when I do it's encased in riddles or double talk, or so vague it makes politicians confused..., however, the more I try changing aspects the more damage it seems to cause. This was one of the main reasons I took two weeks off... and I can tell you now that I don't think it worked at all... I'm still making things worse and more or less awkward for so many of whom I chat with... so much so that the original starting point of the conversation has taken so many twists and turn down backstreets and alley ways that no one really knows how we got here, but it seems as though all hope of finding the way back is lost. So with all that is convoluted I still strive onward to break out of normalcy within my conversation that all who would dare listen upon may go blind from reading the drivel I exude from my orifice, so much so that I myself fear the reprecussions I have upon the people to whom I speak... With that all said and done I realise that the people who do still talk to me... tolerate me on a level beyond comprehension, and so much so in fact that I sometimes release the paranoia inside of me to believe that they may in fact be humoring my insipid utterings with such disdain that one could never truly understand over a text program... and as in real life I just know I'm being humored on occasion... Finally finishing this rant I wonder if you too are humoring me, in an effort to look at more artwork... I guess when it comes to the nitty gritty, it doesn't matter any which way at all, and I should just be glad that people even talk to me, being how I am when it comes to whomever I talk to... OMGTKB (Ben) The key to flying is to throw yourself towards the ground and then miss it...