Welcome to the rant page... I talk about stuff that pisses me off... What's wrong with some people, I mean... I'm not the epitomy of quality self-esteem, but hell, it seems that some people lack it alltogether... that scares me too, cause I don't understand what it takes for a person to lose the ability to value themselves. But what's worse about that is the fact that some people with the low esteem will blame others for there downfall... I think that's truly sad and somewhat moreso pathetic. It's as if they prey on pity... as if it will validate how they feel inside... and they don't want to do anything about it.. even though they can change how they are or the situation they're in... if you have the ability to stop something and you choose not to... that makes you at fault... no one should aimlessly blame others for ones own failings... that's wrong and it's unjust to the other people as well as yourself. People shouldn't be blaming other people... they should be trying to improve themselves if they aren't getting the feedback they desire... and to worry about other people and there success... yeah, I'm guilty of jealousy and envy... I won't deny that, but to make it an obsession about someone and to single out them as a lifelong vendetta... geez, it just seems futile and stupid... and it's a disservice to you and your ability. Too many times have I looked at how far others have come and how far some are ahead of me... it's discouraging at times... but I won't allow myself to sulk to long about it... and I'm not about to blame them for me not improving, for me not being popular and not gonna blame them for any other shortcomings I may have... I see that I need to improve myself until I'm at the standard I should be at... to do otherwise is a lonely road of pain and sorrow that will do nothing but leave you depressed... I suppose the first time I took drawing figures and anthro in general was back in late 2001... I was a poster on the newsgroup AGNPH, still it was there that I started drawing what would turn into my anthropomorphic art... I was really awful at it, but I was surrounded by encouragement... I suppose I've always been in some degree... still, it's been four years of struggle and improvement... I remember I used to draw characters that had no bearing on anything... I drew a piddling comic about a snake and one about characters based on gumby and pokey... but hell, even though I sucked major at that, I never gave up for some reason... I never blamed anyone for my lack of talent... and no one else should either... if you don't like what you're doing, stop... you don't like what's going on.. try to change it... but don't blame other people for things that you have the power to change yourself... - Tiki Man