Welcome to JAWC v2.5 : Another Day, Another Bandana...

I hate the fact that I'm single means I'm allowed to be ridiculed by those who are married... as if my wating for the right person is an endeavor in futility and I should learn to settle like everyone else has...

I really don't want to settle... I think that's bullshit... my love will be something easy... if I have to work to be loved, then I'm not being loved... I should be able to be myself, my pontificating, angry, irritable, deviant self and be loved for it... to have to be something I'm not in order to be loved,... hell just to be liked.. I can't do it... regardless of how sage the advice is... I can't be something I'm not.

Love will come back to me one day, it won't be who I think it will be either, and when it happens I won't know what to do, but I'm not about to go and find love because of peer pressure... that's just insane...

It's really fuckin' annoying too... people younger than me just getting married because it's the thing to do in this county... as if there whole lives are dependent on marriage then getting a job and money then an education and a career... something wrong here and it sure as shot ain't me... it's you fucks out there getting hitched without any thoughts about it... 6 months?... that's a pretty short time to say you'll give your life for that person... if you're not ready to sacrifice you life for that person, you don't love them, your marriage is a farce and you're a puppet... welcome to it.

I'm in this state for another 7 months... I don't want to be here longer than that... I know I may end up being longer, but I don't want it to be that way... my aspirations are far beyond getting married and settling down in Utah... it's an annoying town that goes out of it's way to make others feel as though they're less for having a sense of self and understanding... pious zealots in this place.. and it's.. really fuckin' annoying...

Another thing, I realize that I'm pissing people off more... and then it struck me... I haven't changed, they did... they finally couldn't hide there true characters and are exposing themselves as the intolerant hypocrites they know they are... where's your fuckin' tolerance and love now?... fuckers... I like to rant, I bitch about stuff... I'm a very irritable person... I haven't changed since the first day I met these people... and suddenly out of the blue... I'm a problem?... feh!... you're all a bunch of liars deep down in your supposedly righteous souls... welcome to it.

Anyhow, that's all I got this time, go fuck off and die, don't really care too much, see ya tomorrow...

- Tiki Man