Welcome to JAWC v2.5 : Another week of updates... Well, the odds of anyone actually reading this rant prior to me updating for Tuesday are probably slim... and if weren't for the few people that I know of reading this page, I would prolly think that I'm just wasting my breath... regardless I realize that I don't rant for others to listen... I just rant because I need to speak... and this is my place to do so, free from inhibition and social norms... I realize that people that I deal with are violent... whether it's my sister or the crazy bitch my brother calls a friend... these people are very fist to door or fist to head oriented... they don't realize it's not right to hurt things and/or people... I personally don't see the point in hurting people physically... if it came down to an exchange in words, I'm comfortable with that... it makes sense, I'd rather rip someone a new one by belittling them rather than beating the stuffing out of them with my fists... However I'm not one where I've never gotten into a fight... if push comes to shove and there's no other alternative, I'll do what I can... I'm not about to be a hypocrite and claim I've never gotten so pissed that I'd hit someone... that'd be stupid... cause let's face it, we've all done stuff in our youth that was brazen and retarded... I can't stop the past, but I can alter the future based on my learnings from my past, and that's why I'm glad I've grown up enough to realize that fighting isn't the way to handle any situation... I don't really consider myself violent, I'm passionate about a lot of things, but I've had my share of receiving hurt and being the victim to say to myself, why would I want to hurt someone else?... it's wrong and well... dumb. Anyhow, it's Christmas today, I'll be alone this year, away from parents and the situation with my siblings only begs that I stay away from them less I fall into a pit of despair and sadness, far more than just being alone... so I'll be staying at my place and trying to make the best of a bad situation by watching M*A*S*H Season 10 Discs 2 and 3... I realize that Christmas isn't about gifts... well it is, but that's only the petty aspect of it... Christmas is being with the people you want to be with... others have to choose whether they want to be with one while dealing with another, but overall it's about who you're with... that special group or person who makes things better even when they're at their worst... they bring the joy of the season and make things fun and happy... too often I've seen tradition usurp that concept and things end in disaster... So during this day of Christmas, when things like love, peace, joy to the world and being together with loved ones should mean something... I wish that everyone has that kind of a Christmas and that the day is filled with happiness and joy... and if you can't be near the ones you want to be with, I hope they know how you feel, because sometimes it really is the thought that counts... To that person I long to be with, I wish you a Merry Christmas... Jonathan Coulton will be on my playlist and I'll be thinking of you. - Tiki Man