Welcome to JAWC v2.5 : My neck feels cool as I tie my hair in a small ponytail...

I don't know what life really is... I mean seriously... what's the point of it all?... it's all out of the frying pan and into the fire with things nowadays... and I don't know what the hell it's all for... some are lucky, they find what they want out of it, and are enjoying life... for me I find that I'm constantly jumping from pan to fire on a constant basis... not just limited to singular events I find that it's a mesh of things that I screw up with, and it's very annoying trying to find that special fire I'll be comfortable in...

Saw some dollar movies the other day, gotta say that coke celebrating black history is amazing... they list SIX whole events that black people have accomplished from the 1800s all the way to 1963... SIX EVENTS!!... that's it... that's all blacks have achieved in there time... and since 1963... for FOURTY FOUR YEARS!!! 44 YEARS!... since that last achievement... nothing else has been noteworthy... doesn't that seem odd to some people?... has no one else thought about that commercial and said to themselves... wow... that's pretty fucked up... ain't it?

I realize the more I deal with younger people... and I'm talking people merely 2-4 years younger than I that they're getting stupider... they have no sense of self and are nothing more than rip offs of trendy magazines and TV ads... it's dispicable... sad and pitiful... but geez... I never really knew how much I miss being with people who get who I am... and are there to make me feel as though I'm human too... instead of the teenie bopper idiots I deal with daily... I need to get out... I really do...

6 more months and I plan on moving out of Utah... I don't like it here, and people ask me when I gripe, why do I still stay here if I hate it so much... and the answer is simple... got tricked into it and I'm not about to break my lease... I made my bed... unwittingly, but a bed has been made nevertheless... so I'm gonna sleep in that bed, sleep and sleep until I get enough money to leave... enough to go somewhere else I'll hate and work this whole process over again... I just hope where I want to go in 6 months won't make me so ... miserable...

I-Con is coming up in March... so if you want to see me do some panels for the convention, just pop in and come to 'em... I'll post more as I'm updated... anyhow, I don't know what it is I should say about the panels I want to do, I really want to do a storyboard/webcomic panel... cause it's a really good point of experiencing both together as one medium... another would be storylines and connecting plot and avoiding the pitfalls of most webcomic artists... but eh... like I said.. more later...

not much else to say... so I'll just say life sucks... welcome to it...

- Tiki Man