Welcome to JAWC v3.0 : Tiki Man Graphics, now at table B14 during AnthroCon... Geez, I come back and my computer ends up hating me... I know, you can't really personify a computer, they don't have feelings... regardless!! I find it very upsetting to come back to my apartment and see that the damn thing isn't working because Norton Anti-Virus isn't working right with a file... so my comp won't let the damn windows start up... I mean... WTF!!! Still I have my main conputer that I use for my offline art available to me, so I'm here using this, my good art work computer to update... scares the hell out of me, cause if this computer goes down, I'll just break down in tears and give up completely... just say, "fuck it all" and be on my way to oblivion... yes... I said oblivion... rawr!!!... but still, I'm drawing the comic... it'll go up either tonight or tomorrow in the morning when I have work... I should have 5 minutes to do that crap... I'm having really odd dreams lately... I don't mean dreams that would only be odd to me because I'm a messed up individual, no no... these dreams are borderline nutty as far as anyone is concerned... I thought I was through with this crap... but it keeps coming back to bother me over and over again, as if to just mock me and my life... mocking all the things I've tried to blok out because to dredge them up is a painful horror that keeps me from sleeping well and overall puts me in a foul mood because it's things that I know will never come true or be mine... a horrible dream existance of turning the screws in my already irritating life of mearger nothingness... I'm starting to long for the days of blank sleep, where I drift off and wake when the bell tolls... how I miss the nothingness.... I should talk about my trip to New York as well as my excursion to I-Con.. I-Con, was... well, it was all-right... nothing spectacular... shared a table with Groat, met up with Fossil and ScullyRaptor, got to hang out with Rokik Safarian and Mike Apice... so that was cool... Didn't sell much of anything, but I've gotta e-file with NY so that I don't get bitchslapped by their taxation department.. what a hassle that was to get that damn certificate of authority... just ... bleh!!... Anyway, I was staying back home with my parents, let me tell everyone who moves out of there parents home... if you didn't stay out late, followed the main rules, and in doing so had free reign over the house.... DO NOT MOVE OUT!!!... I made that mistake... really... after leaving for 9 months, I had forgotten how good I had it there, just me and my little world of relaxation and solitude... free eats, free room and board, free everything... it was a nice excape from the world I had set myself into... but yeah, I still remember the rough times I had back in the day, the times I complained about certain things about that lifestyle... and I don't forget the reason I left also... but it's such an odd reason... The reason I left, as I've come to understand it, is that I figured it was about time I moved out and learned who I am as a person... I mean seriously what a shitty reason... I should've stayed home and pampered myself with the thought of no worries and frivolity... instead I come out to the holy hell of Utah at my sisters' and brothers' request, only to find out that I got stuck out here by circumstances I had accidentally laid out for myself unwittingly... lack of money. I came out on a shoestring... came out and since then, I'm no longer sure if I regret moving to Utah or just moving in general... it's a mixed bag and I don't know which it is anymore... I know that at the rate I'm going at, I'll be able to move again by next year... around this time most likely... I'm not pleased, but until I can muster up the capital needed to escape... I'm stuck here, trying to make the best of this situation... luckily, there's a dollar movie theatre close by so I can drown my worries in cheap movies... just gotta stay away from the provo area and I'll be fine.... damn place is littered in fast food places... horrible place to go into when you want to lose weight and love McDonalds... regardless... I'll get outta this place and move someplace new that I'll hate... until then, Utah County is my apt. away from home... -_-;;; Anyway back to what I was saying, visited home, took my first plane ride, found it quite comfortable.... regardless of the guy who sat next to me hunched over reading physics books...creepy guy... still, had fun at home, miss home, want to go back but my reasons are clear... clearly nuts!... hehe... okay, bad joke... moving on!... let's see... ah yes... only three months until AnthroCon... so woot!! Wait... I should retract the woot... I still have to buy my air fare, discuss whether or not I'll be taking a drive back with another person, whether I'll be taking an extended vacation, and what I should do about rent, and my apartment... I also have to finish the books and then sell them on furbid, sell other art on furbid, sell CD's on furbid and a whole load of other shit... fuck... I've only got three months unil AnthroCon... So much nervous... in fact I'm gonna stop typing, draw the comic, work in the books and get to work... Until I update next time, take easy and have a good one, until then though, welcome to it. - Tiki Man