Welcome to JAWC v3.0 : Tiki Man Graphics, now at table B14 during AnthroCon... Everytime I think I'm taking a step foward... I'm really just walking backwards... it's becoming annoying... but nevertheless, I push onward into the eternal struggle of back and forth until I succumb to the insanity and just fall into obscurity. Sometimes I think that maybe I shouldn't draw anymore... maybe this isn't what I need to do with my life... maybe I should be like all the other sheep and just be a part of the flock... just follow for the rest of my life and be contented with the feed that's occasionally spread out before me and say that it's good enough for me. and just be content with what my life consists of. just be content. It's about this time I realize that I'm never content... with anything... art that I've drawn, people I know, people I meet, I find that I expect of others more than I really should... who am I to expect so much of other people?... I mean, really, these are the sheep I was just talking about... only they really are contented... they really have resigned themselves to this life they've grown accustomed to. I wonder how complacent I've become... I signed another year contract at my apartment complex... I still don't have a license and take the bus everywhere... there are few people I get along with... it's actually just irritating overall... I was at my brothers' place the other day and I was told that I play the part of a younger brother well... seeking attention and annoying my older brother... I mean... WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT?! I can't recall a situation where I went out of my way to be the center of attention... I can't even recall a time where I annoyed my brother on purpose... hell, most the time I'm over there and have to make sure my brother invites me so I don't come over unannounced, because I know that annoys him. I try to stay out of the lime-light... I really don't want to be the focal point of the party, it's not my scene... I like to relax and just be me, and here's this chick that thinks I'm trying to seek attention and annoy my brother... what has my brother been saying about me? what kind of fucked up bullshit is being spread about me?... it's annoying and it's ... just.. I dunno... I guess I shouldn't see my brother again if possible that way I don't have to be talked about behind my back... and yeah, I know some of you think I'm talking about him behind his back, not really... he reads my rants on occasion... so he's free to read this and then make up some other shit to his friends about being misunderstood or something like that... but eh, he does that anyway so what's the diffrence? Anyway... bought my airline ticket to Pittsburgh... taking a red eye in, which sucks... but I'll be able to crash at the hotel a few hours after I arrive there... it's just a matter of getting to the airport... do I ask my brother? do I take a shuttle? I dunno yet, but worse situation is that I just take the shuttle and spend the 40 bucks... but with airfare finished and hotel reserved... I suppose I'm set... I have things mostly ready for myself... I just hope I don't muck it up somehow... which is a valid fear, at least I think it is... still, nervous about everything regardless... so here's to hoping things work out... I think I'm gonna hiatus all activities... it seems like the best idea at the moment... just work and work, bare minimum of sleep and little or no fun, until the books are finished... then I'll take a day to relax and treat myself... I've still got another 60 pages to draw worth of images... and then the inking.. the time consuming inking!! ... let's see... 60 images to ink would take me about 2 weeks... crap.. I really gotta finish the images in 2 weeks, then ink like crazy... then to colour the images, then work on the CD layout... yeah... I'll be busy until the last week of June... so here's to hoping all works out and I can get the images done and ready for y'all come AnthroCon... Anyhow... gonna hit the hay, take easy and have a good week, see ya friday... g'night and welcome to it. - Tiki Man